So that went to shit immediately didn’t it?

I pretended for a few days like I was going to write a blog, and then I didn’t at all.

All those little plans and dreams of mine instantly went down the drain. But that’s okay. I had misaligned expectations. No one died.

I haven’t even looked at this blog since I wrote the last post. It just ran away from me when I started the new job. And yes, I know from reading back through ‘Turning on the taps’ that one of my fears was that I would drop the habit straight away because I was in between two jobs. I get it. I failed. That fear was in fact completely justified.

I found the reviewing difficult; the amount of re-editting I was doing was insane versus my expectations. I had a really tight turnaround on my morning routine and exercise has been swallowing quite a bit of time. That was probably due to my set up, thinking about it like a Day One, Day Two etc. I was trying to review Day One before getting Day Two out, and then I was having other ideas along the way. Not disciplined enough with my time. Not happy enough with the words on the page. Hunting for perfection. I struggled with splitting out the time between writing fresh material and reviewing / re-editing new material given the time commitment.

Well, 9 months later, here I am again. It’s been playing on my mind for a while that I think I have more free time in my life now so I want to do a blog. Hey, I already have one! Albeit one that had the lifespan of a fruit fly. Time to change that.

Funnily enough, reading back through all the previous posts, I went through all the exact same thought processes AGAIN. Life is circular. Thoughts repeat. Fears remain. I have a sneaky suspicion that will never change.

What I also forgot about was that little framework I had going on. It looks pretty decent, I might try it again.

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